Long time no blog

Haven't had time to blog in a long long time. These days, even taking my usual daily long hot shower is a luxury. Just today I hurriedly jumped into the shower while the 3 kids napped and I went out shocked to see all three crying. Kaden had a bad dream (which is rare), Amber was hungry, and Carlos just really cries when he realizes I'm not around the moment he opens his eyes.

A lot of people have been asking me how I manage with these three. Actually there are times when I wonder too. It would be a lot easier if my husband were around more often. I know that as much as we both wish for that, well it just isn't so... for now. 

Sometimes, I think I multi-task so much that i seem to have forgotten how it is to actually think straight. Like right now when I'm in between feeding the boys their dinner and writing this short blog post with about ten other things on my "to do list" running through my mind. 

Do I get help at all? Yes, there's a nice lady who comes here upon request to cook for us. I just give her a list of what i want and then she'll tell me what to order from the grocery, then she'll come here to cook for us. We just refrigerate them and then heat on the microwave when its time to eat. Easy peas-y, as Kaden would say. She cooks good for a month or less, depending on our consumption. I also have the option of calling her whenever I need to go out like to take the kids for their check ups. Every now and then when Kaden requests and if I have the time, I'm able to cook fried food like longganisa, hotdogs and the like. Right now, that's the most time I can devote to cooking... if it is considered cooking at all. :)

So yeah, this is my current occupation: a homemaker. I'm a mother, a babysitter, a maid, a tutor, among others, rolled into one and a day off is just a dream.I just try my best to make sure I don't get too busy with my chores that I forget that I'm a mother first and foremost, and neglect do things with the kids. I try to give the kids the time they need from me, like whenever my boys  need me to sit with them and play [trains] or when our little Amber needs to be held and talked to, or when I need to read Kaden stories at bedtime, or when Carlos just wants to cuddle while he watches his favorite shows or when I just have to sit down and listen to their stories. :) I could go on and on and on. 

Wondermom, they say? No. Just a mom.

I also struggle every now and then with the thought of things I want to do and cannot do at this point. But I tell myself that all of those can wait, for now I just have to savor every moment with my three munchkins for they won't be little very long. 

Having to care for a five month old, a 23 month old and a five year old by myself is not all fun and games, but it helps that my eldest son, Kaden, is a very willing handy helper. :) It's really unbelievable how fast he's grown up! With three wide eyed wonders looking up at me and truly believing that I can fix anything in their world, I sometimes feel like yeah, I can do anything!

So for every tear I have to wipe, nose I have to clean, bottom I have to wash, fight I have to break up, booboo I have to kiss, lost thing I have to find, broken toy I have to fix, new toy I have to assemble, mess that I have to clean up, and when I feel that I'm on the verge of losing my mind or I'm almost at wit's end... I tell myself that this here is motherhood in its truest sense. It's both beautiful and messy, wonderful and crazy, and there is absolutely nothing in this world I would trade for it.